Minggu, 21 Juni 2009

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Duly waktu kecil gue paling ogah salaman sama yang namanya badut. Gatau kenapa, males aja. Hehe. Apalagi do dufan, banyaaaak benerr badutnya. Dulu gue pernah punya pengalaman buruk sama ok badut, atau ok badut tv punya pengalaman buruk sama gue. Begini ceritanya:

Nyokap: ayo salaman sama om badut ado..
Gue. : ENGGGAAAAA
Nyokap: gapapa, ink dalemnya orang kok..
Gue. : GAAAAAAAAAA( sambil berontak gara2 gue dipegangin)
Nyokap: ( ngambil tangan gue terus dijulurin ke om2 badut,)
Gue. : eeeeeerrrggghhh ( melawan sektat tenaga)

Dan sepersekian detik sebelom badut jahanam itu megang tangan gue yang sehalus sutera, tiba2 gue dapet ide cemerlang, jadi pas detik2 terakir ok badut mau nyalamin gue, gue ngangkat kaki kanan gue tinggi tinggi lalu memusatkan konsentrasi pads kaki sang om badut. Lalu gue menghujamkan kaki gue keatas kakinya, BLUGGGH. Sedetik kemudian terdengarlah dengusan tertahan dari om badut. Hahaha.. Maaf ya om..
Tapi, kalo dipikir2 gue jahat juga ya( iyalah). Sekarang begitu gue udah bisa berpikir, gue mulai menyesal telah mendiskreditkan profesi badut. Kenapa?? Sebenernya jadi badut itu butuh keterampilan khusus, selain ngelucu atopun akrobat. They must good at hiding their feelings, why? Because clown are paid to make people happy, so he can't entertain people if they look sad. Badut selalu dituntut untuk tersenyum setiap saat. Mereka harus terlihat bahagia, Karena ga Ada yang tau isi hati om badut. Bisa aja sebenernya lagi sedih, lagi hancur dalem hatinya, ga Ada yang tau. Dan ga Ada yang peduli, karena si badut terlihat bahagia. Same as how I feel sometimes, I am the clown itself. People see I'm a happy man, but it's just a mask I wear so I don't have to worry anyone. I just keep smiling to make people around me smiling too, they don't have to know that deep inside me I'm crumble. Gue jadi bertanya tanya, gimana kalo si badut udah ga bisa ketawa karena yang dia hadapin terlalu berat, cos I need to learn..

Sabtu, 20 Juni 2009

Sorry,

5 minute changed my day. Yup, it only took 5 minute to turns my great day into a bad day. One little unimportant, really unimportant thing had screwed up my day.
Today, yesterday exactly my girlfriend came to my house at 12 in the morning. She brought me food for my breakfast, yeah i just woke up at 11.19. I had a great day, we laughed together, watch tv, play cards and other things. And suddenly when i thought yesterday was a one of our great day, shit happens. I made silly things. I dont have to tell u what. But, one thing for sure. Its just a misunderstand. But, it made her mood suddenly changed. We had a little argue and she said she had forgive me for what i have done. But, i knew she didnt forgive me at all, she kept it. And she didnt want to talk it over. And it made us quiet with one and another, untill i took her home we havent spoke much, we just speak if needed. And she walked away with no smile. And i thought what i said wont make any difference, so i keep quiet. I text her to said sorry, still, her answer was plain..
I dont know what to do anymore, hope tomorrow everything gonna be alright.. Amin.

Minggu, 14 Juni 2009

01.37 pagi.

Udah sebulanan lah gue 'alpha' dalam urusan posting-memosting cerita di blog gue ini. Sempet sih kmaren mau posting, tp gajadi gatau kenapa.. Males aja.. Hehe..
Malem ini jam di kamar gue menunjukkan pukul stenga duaan. Pasti lo bertanya kenapa gue blom tidur padahal besok hari senin? Gagtau nh, i feel sleepy but i cant sleep yet. Tv dikamar gue sengaja gue nyalain, ada bola. Biasanya kalo gue ktiduran dan gue lupa matiin tipi nyokap gue akan masuk kamar dan mematikannya.. Sayang, she's not here, and last time i saw her was more than 2 months ago, i miss you mom.
Bingung gue mau ngapain sekarang.. Maunya sih nelpon pacar, tapi udah tidur paling dia. Tadi, gue makan sate di jalan sama dia trus kruma gue makaan martabak telor, trus jam 11an dia balik deh.. Kmarennya gue abis nntn star trek sama dia, good movie. Walopun gue duduk di row ke 3 dari bawah, gapaapa..
Its been 4,5 months this relathionship going, and as far as i concerned we ve been trough this without any major problem, semogaaa begini terus ya saaayaaang, amin.
Ahhh, udah ah coy, udah jam 2 dan besok gue kuliah pagi, so..
Untill i write again, see yaa!